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SMU interview was weird. I think i screwed the whole thing up. They didnt ask me any current political issues instead we talked about Hilter, Traditional Chinese and Western Medicine and History of Singapore. like WTH! i wasnt even expecting those kind of Qns. And just as expected, i 'crapped' my way through.

and i said a word that i shouldnt have said- i said the word 'CONTROL' !! they were asking me about which qualites of Hilter do i look up too? And i went on about talking about his charisma and leadership qualities and i finally said " the way he used all of these to control the whole entire Germany in thinking that killing the Jews was right" BLEH! i used the wrong word and i am freaking dead.i wanted to say "Controlling is okay but not to the extent of controlling people to do something the is morally wrong." but i dont think i said that. Darn it, they probably think i am a big control freak. everyone knows that he manipulated the Germans but that is a wrong reason to look up too. ARGH ARGH ARGH. and they started bugging me about the whole issue of controlling. Darn, i can go jump down now.

maybe i am overreacting but i gave it my best shot. it is not as if i am really aiming for SMU but i just feel that i wasted an opportunity. i just feel a little bit disappointed in myself. i know i could have done better in thinking before answering the Qns. Oh Well, thanks to Sherina who directed me to the Raffles Buidling. it is way off SMU and it was sooo hard to find. :/

it is all up to God now. i am still praying for more directions in my life. :)

this is my cry

my one desire

is to be where you are, Lord

now and forever